Author: Commanda'A

First Family

Mutual Respect * Mutual Good * Mutual Touch.

What do these three have in common? At least to the Mission of NUDY?


Your Peace Commanda * Peace General has emerged from mythic prophetic Eastertime union with soul found: consciousness healed. Deeply healed.

First Family ~ this is your soul. Soul as family. Your determination to live out your uniqueness. I have it. I live it.

I come from generational sorrow in the peace strain of Ireland, Germany, a smidge of England, and a whole dose of humanism conditioned. The body of the world. The mechanics of life ~ we come here free spirits, get crammed into tiny living spaces called bodies, and live out the frequency of our times.

I have a couple of siblings, some cousins, some nieces and nephews (mine and my cousins’ children), and all the patriarchs and matriarchs. They are overall a nice bunch with lots of strong undertones of grateful proud American. Whatever strength I have to give, it has come from our ancestral survival first; my compassionate mutative survival next. Thank you, blood kin family.

What does this mean? Mutative survival…

I love humanity. I am Aquarian ~ I have great affection for our so-called abandoned little corner of the Universe. I never thought that way (abandoned little nothing!) because Mary. (Thank you, mystery of faith!) Because MJ. (Thank you spirit in Mary Jane!) Because — and this is the biggie — Amelia. My mutative spirit in the patriarchal bunch.

Amelia. My chosen mystic Self and our Mission General of Compassion. SEX and the body. Sex and the MIND. I entered my dark (sin) to recall the light (whole). AND I listened to it. I listened while falling, I listened while getting up, I am listening now after my most profound recent trip into dark [Jan 1 – March 3] ~

Before 2021 I never, ever, never even conceiving once that we humans are weak stardust vehicles of abandoned nothingness except…that is precisely where my mind ended up! — in the stardust bin. The throwaway pile. Aaaaahhhh?! Why? Because Surrender. The only way out of despair. In 2021 I went there so I know – we are love we are whole – we do not need fixing, we need listening.

This journey to mental-emo hell, it spiked to All Is Lost in 2021…now I know what you go through. So glad to know. So glad I’m still here. In this body MJ. Contemplation practice, heeey, it got me lost in the first place! Lost is the quest! Quietude and questioning, it got me out. Utterly lost, all I could do was surrender, listen to tender, and thus be able to walk myself out.

Yes, I walked myself out. I am First Family. My soul guidance: First Lost Family commitment leads to First Family Found~!

First Family Found, where are we? This fresh step back onto an Internet page. (I step back into the work everyday yet little comes out.) With the most generous, healing, freeing queer sex in my lifetime occuring on Easter Monday, I sealed The Work of my personal deep dive into traditional Good Friday through Aramaic Easter Sunday. Sealing the Mutual Good of Mutual Touch as to give NUDY to you, the like-minded Mutual Respectful.

I feel like there is wholly power resting Its hand on the lever of my dam. My Electric Peace Dam. Wild surrender, wise Guidance spilling out, everywhere…

Manifesting Generator with Sacral Authority ~ your Peace Commanda

In Pussy General, this sounds different. Mutual touch. My inner road to working priestess, it is my work. Yet The Work is deconditioning the mind. May you find your way. Ahhhhh, one day soon…the working priestess. Today, well, sorry, no easier way to push an Internet button to say YES to my experiment! Any day now?? Would you like some buttons? Here is a dense, incomplete sharing of my determined path to NUDY…

Mutual touch or whacked out crutch ~ what won’t you give to be free?

Pussy General
  • NOT EQUAL LAND ~ in body vehicles, the divine feminine exists in all ~ all humans have divine feminine ~ as the quality of higher caring and tenderness ~ it is S/H/E who owns the land and there is no thing comparable to S/H/E
  • Respect for the Masculine Pole is paramount to NUDY
  • Men in general express the masculine pole and they shall be respected not denigrated as they are called HOME to S/H/E
  • First Family is where NUDY is given primary space in a sacred marriage ~ be this alone, coupledom, other family unit
  • Sex Surrender ~ they go together ~ because peace is in the process and is the very air of falling to one’s knees in strength
  • Quiet Belly UP ~ new family leadership is mutual support for when a family member must touch the pain
  • 6th Sense as 6th Scene of a Movie ~ where can intuitive impulses and emotional awareness be honored both in the movie of your Life? What is the 6th Scene?
  • Determined Sex Forgiveness PLAN ~ #metoo and allllll sexual war tension between men and women (and trans) has effects; NUDY is a determination plan to forgive personal, social, and community sex war
  • Easy with Relationships ~ on a very personal end note, your Peace Commanda is going belly UP to the Light with all my relationships ~ this profound recent inner trip to the dark brought tremendous change ~ including lighting up my human desire to be recognized and how it was wearing out the grace of my social ties ~ forcing as shadow, as unwinnable war and too taxing on blood kin family including me ~ blood family IS hard on the path of deconditioning ~ So, soul as first family and with the rest of my relationships…Easy is Right (Chuang Tzu)

May you feel my Hug? May you feel loved? THAT is mutual touch ~ a moment of mind*love sent…thank you for mutual respect sent back for the overwhelming odds it takes to keep this spirit alive and ALIGNED * NUDY is Surrender~


New Worth

I birthed the VOICE this past weekend. Longer post necessary, better takes coming…but when a human steps into embodiment of their purpose and life work, something physical changes. All this talking and posting about birthing the mission ~ how could I have forgotten??? It is the birth of VOICE that pushes through the work. My child, here! O JOYOUS BIRTH~!!

This deserves a story.

Once upon a lifetime, your creatrix Mary Jane became imprinted with sorrow, sadness, sickness, and depressive death. At six months old, I was taken to see my grandfather in the hospital. He was dying. Of lung cancer. His last words were…Mary Jane. I heard that story all my shared life. (Shared through Mom. She’s gone.)

I can easily imagine Pop Pop’s hoarse voice eeeking out my name because it happened EXACTLY the same. Our Mary Jane is now 35 and I am coming home from far away, entering our family’s front door, and hearing my dad joyously croak out my name. Dad lay on his deathbed. He is dying in our living room. Of lung cancer. He will be gone by morning. His last words Mary Jane.

Why do I tell such a dark story in a time of such joy?

Because I married my semen sadness instead of moving home to care for my aging parents. None of that sorrow is here anymore. It almost killed me. Now I am free. (I’ll be telling this story forever, grab a shower, I’ll be here all year.)

Freed in the heart, yes. No, I am not levitating to the bathroom. Yes, I will still be able to call UP the feeling of sorrow. And, no, sorrow will no longer rule my life. Or block my throat as if my life were being threatened, in mortal fear to take my lumps and simply say I’m sorry.

What happened? A combo of prolonged contemplation of life purpose (Human Design & Gene Keys) + a long weekend of copious amounts of good beer, bourbon, and white wine + a few tokes of a super strong joint…throw in breaking up with my intimate human of the last 5.3 years as well as divorcing myself from a worthwhile, non-aligned online community (whew)…

BAM! Birth came. The Voice came. Anticipated but impossible to make happen until, well, surrender to the power.

Fawk billboard. Way more Pussy than Peace General ~ energy is the same. FORGIVENESS as New Earth Sex game

Thank you, good chaos over a packed long weekend! BAM! I am beginning to tell my story with fury and fever. This feverish OUT DEVIL! OUT! has wiped out the constriction of all those heavy mental-emo weights ~ Worthless; Not Deserving; Whore; Lying Whore; Disgusting Bitch; and (not mine, but also) Not Good Enough; Not Loveable; Reject Me.

Can you imagine how happy I feel to be weightless in these categories? The worth I feel writing up my schedule for where I’ll be sharing my NUDY, 55K FAWK Fellatio project, and much more. I’ll be putting the Pussy General blog behind a private veil to give the best show. I’ll be sharing my real soul in Peace General unafraid that my very being is offensive and wrong.

Old lovers, family, former community, the crotch sniffers…if they find me now, GOOD. I love them now because I love my SELF. The one SELF we are so worthy of birthing anew…

It’s the new worth smell…no longer in HELL.

If you are a survivor of any emotional illness, mental dis-ease, physical OUCH, anything scandalous, sorrowful, or regular ordinary human suffering and you wonder…will I EVER feel whole? The answer is YESH if you practice something good! I’ll be demonstraing how I practice with the Footies, sexual sensual or just suffering, and I’ll be LOVING my SELF as I do.

BAM~! You can catch this fever too. But only if you make LOVE your whole life, starting with you. It is work, not a fridge magnet. (Alone. I love fridge magnets!)

New Worth ~ do you mind if we go out on a few lyrics of a mission song? May this be our work together…

If I give new earth, if I show up for my worth ~ joy and sadness, moving sadness

New Worth, song by Amelia Energy

Maiden Position

Are you aware of the general age span of the earth or mythic maiden? Early 20s. Perhaps later. 30s is reasonable for the modern maiden!

What is the maiden? In general history, she is a *female of marriageable age, 12-19 according to some fandoms of kingdoms and what have you.

What have you…here? Where are you? Is this worldbuilding, this Peace General? Who does the Peace General serve? What king, what queen, what subjects, of what maidens do we speak?

Do you know what you have here? Here it is…

What we’ve got here is…failure to communicate.

Captain, Cool Hand Luke (1967)
Maiden Communication

So, please, may I correct this with you? This failure? What you see above is the recently published NUDY photoart, a memoir piece from my 30s rendered NUDY under the Aquarius January Sun 2023. What you don’t see are my inner thoughts of what it means to give NUDY, why a mature sounding mission like the Pussy General is peace building.

If fiction and fantasy worldbuilding is your passion, thank you. I honor that. Here in Muthaship Communication, home to the Pussy General, resting in the infinite field that is peace, the Peace General is leading a more gracious, gentle, generous friendly tone than the outrageous “First Footie” and her red lipstick. What we honor is the mysterious, often arduous, inner pathbuilding process of forgiveness.

Forgiveness ~ a suffering Footie’s first priorty to SELF, a self-forgiving human wishing to become new. That’s a Footie.

If I were to give the Pussy General’s tone, I would write “wow, that’s an ass-load of material”. Why did I just give it here on Peace General? Because it’s vital you begin to know the virtues I cherish and uphold. FREEDOM. Freedom is our highest virtue in our Army of Virtues. Freedom is being free of the victim shadow frequency. The only war that exists ~ inner mind. Victim.


I pray graciousness for this harshness, but it’s the potency YOU deserve. Clarity that Maiden in our Mission is NUDY (peace psychology emerging). It is also a NUDY position. Meaning the degree of human nudity shown for peace teaching purposes of “seeing” NUDY of seeing with the forgiven mind ~ forgiven and free of the victim.

This Position specifically…

MAIDEN ~ visible NUDY buttocks with the rest of the body possibly un/dressed

Amelia Energy

Maiden is Misison ~ Maiden is Position ~ Maiden is Mythic ~ Maiden is Communication…unfolding.

You deserve an essay on the vital distinction between a youth and a maiden; history of maidens; more. For now, might I ask a HUGE ask? Might you discern this general mission as a peace tone? Abuse of children through sexual everything is a shadow. A dark shadow. A shadow this mission chooses to dissolve through our sheer existence. Meaning it is not our specific mission; our mission is discernment and forgiveness. The Maiden is a mythic teaching tone and never a vulnerable youth.

It is never lost on us, the sexual warring of our species throughout all time. War crosses a sexual line all the time. So be it. Mutha Nature is evolving us, and she will have Her way and the final say. Perhaps you’ll find solace with us through this time?

Your guide, Amelia Energy, she is I she is you she is getting up out of her emotional hospital bed right now. Communication will be rocky at first. But it won’t be failed. To giveit, this NUDY. May I/we improve every time. {deep bow to your spirit}

Thanks for your patience, I adore you for it.


P.S. *female is starred because it is 2023 and there is a gender identity war happening. This war is not lost here, but it remains untouched, except for this note, until robust communication may be given to honor that war and the peace within the paradox of all is lost and therefore found. Until then, all my love and adieu for now ~

Healing with Gene Keys

Click to begin a wonderful adventure

When will enough be enough? That’s what I didn’t know I was asking myself when my head fell in my hands. April 2020, but it wasn’t over the Coronavirus shutdown. It was my work going down the drain. Again. I found the Gene Keys a month later, began studying, and now just two weeks into 2023 I’ve followed through on a fifteen year vision. {NUDY}

Although it’s true I’ve worked on myself for years, gentle contemplation of my Gene Keys turned on a poetic light I couldn’t find otherwise.

What do I love most about this modern synthesis of genetics and I Ching? Its first student, author Richard Rudd, does not want you to follow him or his system forever. He doesn’t want your idolatry nor your dogmatic adherence to what I would attest is a deeply transformative work. This author wishes you to LIVE!

And so do I.

I admit, I had a brush with dogma. (Strict religious upbringing, so I’m primed.) Catching elusive harmful patterns in a short amount of time is exciting! So, yeah, I wanted everyone to know about this! But then…uggh, I caught myself in an ugly mirror. Me pushing dogma?! Dang, old habits break…easy?

Here’s the Siddhic Beauty (1st Gene Key)…not only was it relatively easy to catch my shadowy behavior, it was WAY easier to breathe in and release another shadow creeping in — self-shame and self-loathing from embarassment. THAT is amazing self-authority. That’s what I found through the Gene Keys.

Romance with Life Itself, that’s what I found…

I wonder if Gene Keys is a road for you? No dogma, just deep gratitude for the gift I now hold ~ self-love. I am grateful to share and spread this work. May your journey to healing your soul be abundantly blessed.

Mutha Position

Have you ever contemplated the miracle version of the walking dead? Like…Biblical? Wrong holiday (it’s about to be Christmas) but that guy Mr. Nazareth DID raise the dead. Can you imagine how disorienting that was and is…to sit up, you were dead, and now you’re breathing earth air again?!?

Would you receive my grace? I’m the walking dead today. Today is my declaration of FULL return to *working* mental, emotional, and psychological full healthy functioning. Now, don’t get too excited! This thing called Earth is asking us all to die! We don’t stay here, folks! And THAT is another trip. Like the esctatics take.

Today, hey, no acid drop invitations. No ads for circle line cruises around Manhattan where we’ll see the Statue of Liberty and Mutha NUDY walking on water. Nah, I’ll be walking on the carpet to the bathroom. No levitation. HOWEVER…

Would you be willing to go with me a moment? I ask a whole LOT, don’t I? Mysterious confusion, delightful annoying to the impatient. (I get it! I honor it! I thank it!)

Now that I’m raring to go with my rear end (B-Side in Pussy General, not posted yet, sorry), I feel communication gathering like a rain cloud. Commanda Comms is about to reign down from the sky, purple rain drops in the distance of a purple sky as the Peace Eagle circles in Mutha position.

MUTHA ~ visible NUDY breasts with the rest of the body dressed

Amelia Energy

That’s it. BAM! Baby just put on earth, NUDY birthed, Christ LIGHT child delivered. Would you please, please, please forgive me for no essay? A worthy and necessary task, essays on the sexual peace I have felt emerging in me for over fifteen years. But without full healing, ugh, lame leaking and unhappy frustrating all over the place. Now the healed rain cloud is gathering with force and I just have to go.

If I sound like where a textbook meets a chapbook, that’s my flavor. Isn’t that what an experimental blog is for? I don’t know what this door is for (THE BODY!) but maybe its for contemplating suffering? Sounds great to M.E.

If I deliver on my goods, next post will be me, myself, I — me, M.E., ME. And a physical place to SEE Mutha NUDY~! Until then, listen within, because I’ll know when I go…


[We are in pre-startup mode; would you give NUDY through patience? Every blog post here is draft content for a longer work. No time to polish, only dance into giving sex AS Life. To give sex as a public service is a huge task and we are UP for the challenge as relaxed non-perfectionists self-obsessed with public good. Thank you!]

A cultural war is raging in many parts of the world — what is a man, what is a woman, what is gender, what is sex? Pronouns, nouns, and etiquette. Bathroom, board room, Congressional floor. What is war for? Perpetuating the welter of a lie, the lie of separation! Please, may we listen?!

Peace General is the mission position of ACCEPTED. To accept forgiveness is to bless the mess and step out of the victim mind of what cannot be tamed or controlled. Unity is ALL of it. Affected deeply by receiving NUDY (healing of victim mind), is to heed life at a mythic level. To discern that this general war has been here before. Perhaps I’ll listen to it energetically? Contemplate?

Here is our mission pronoun: the unity principle as proper usage of mind.

  • S/H/E
  • S ~ traditional / heteronormative she and essence of divine feminine (non-linear)
  • H ~ traditional / heteronormative he and essence of divine masculine (linear)
  • E ~ where traditional drops into pure ENERGETICS of the cosmos; where all old & new sexual expressions are given in gift frequency aka the open heart, listening as love
  • Respected is another mission position; we respect each other’s pain and suffering; we mind cultural war with loving patience